April Fools

Fools are everywhere. Fools have no self control , and are loose with their lips. They like to talk about everyone because their hearts aren’t pure.

People are foolish by nature. Everyone is working in & from a space of darkness, so we can’t see. What we think is entertainment and fun or even logical, is foolish to God. God makes clear in the Bible that the opposite of a wise man is a foolish man. Foolish people are arrogant and easily insulted. Their ego is massive and it blinds them to their nature. Everyone wants to be better than the next person nd our eyes are focused on detrimental things and this feeds the ego.

Looking further, a foolish person is stuck in the matrix. They are vibrating on a very low frequency. They can’t control their emotions and react to stimulation in this simulation. They have no self control. Their ego is in charge, that’s why God says you must unalive the ego each day because it will make you a fool.

I was once foolish. Some days I battle with my ego. When someone insults me, I feel I have to protect my “ego”. The ego gets bruised easy because it’s the weaker version of you, the matrix version of you.

Gold Level

God is gold. Attaining a gold mindset is finding God. When you follow God and achieve success you receive gold. Gold is the end goal.

Religion skews the whole concept of God because it tries to break it down. Not only does religion make God too literal, it gives you an idol to look up to, and according to the Bible, we should have no idols. God is too grand to be explained. It’s not a person, place or thing, it’s all three. It lives outside of time, the creator of the universe.

God is in everything. God is in music, food, art, tv shows everything. God is revealed through your talents. One day as I showering, I was going through the concept of God, trying to understand. I said “God please reveal yourself to me” all of a sudden I started to sing. It was beautiful. Then I was downloaded with music, new music. God is in what you can do really well.

I hear a lot of people disregard God. Especially with new age philosophies. Or they say “I am God”. You’re not a God if you’re not allowing it to use you. I say “it” because it doesn’t have a gender.

God has mercy. It understands all the shortcomings of life. It knows we fall short. It doesn’t look at anything as good or bad. It’s nature is opposite of man. It doesn’t care about your flaws, it still wants to use you. That’s what makes it so beautiful

Spending Time Alone

Introversion is real. I love staying to myself with my own thoughts. Some people in my position would go crazy because of the amount of time I spend alone. I use to love being around people, until I realized, people are human and most of them don’t know who they are. Putting yourself around misguided people will lead to destruction. Most people are fleshy and only want to do things to feed their flesh.

I use to be a worldly person. It stunted my self discovery and made me vulnerable to people’s wicked nature. I had to go through being used and talked about while showing my heart. I realized some people don’y have good intentions for you. It crushed me. Now I understand the importance of boundaries and not leaving my happiness up to people. Everyday I wake up, I take my happiness into my own hands. Spending time alone, makes me happy. I feel safe. I can fulfill my own needs, putting that in someone else’s hands is crazy to me.

This year I do want to connect with people. But I want it to be a real connection, not convenience. Most people only connect because of convenience. I don’t dislike people, this is just reality. Until I find real, solid connections I will be 100% content by myself.

It’s Up To You

It’s a new year, time to develop new ideas. Start new things. You can have any and everything you want in life but you have to go after it, full speed.

I believe you determine your future by your mindset. If you live a passive life, then you won’t accomplish much. You’ll be swept away by every distraction, never living life to it’s full potential. You have to be active. Many people go after what they want, but what they want is so insignificant and mundane. It’s fleshy, and built on a survival mindset. People get bored and settle. Settling steals your creative energy, you become lifeless. Don’t think you have to do what you see everyone else do. Don’t be afraid to dream big. We are all created to do great exploits and leave this world better.

Get this, the same way you achieved other dreams and goals is the same way you go after extraordinary goals. It’s the same tactic, you have to use the same energy. For example, say you went to nursing school and through hard work and dedication you got your nursing degree. Now you work in a hospital. Don’t stop there. You can use the same tactic you used to finish nursing school, and open your own practice, or whatever you want to do. The goal is to be free and happy.

Sometimes I feel we are afraid to live out our dreams. Maybe we are afraid because it may not last, we don’t want to have all eyes us or we don’t want to hurt others by living the life we deserve. Whatever it is, that mindset must die. You should never be afraid to be yourself and to do amazing things. I don’t understand how people can hate on others for doing what they refuse to do. You must leave your mark on the universe, that’s the whole point of being alive. You’re not here just to make money, eat and sleep. That’s a fleshy way to live and it always ends in death. You are here to go through trails and tribulations so that you can learn and grow. Then you use what you know to help others, period. You’re here to help the next generation.

Once we get this in our spirits then we are aligned with the mission of God. Don’t let this world fool you into worshipping the worldly systems. Get on your mark, become spirit led and go after it all.

Being Unauthentic

We live in a world where you can’t be yourself, you have to shrink to fit in. It’s like you can’t show up as you, some people don’t even know that they are not being themselves. The devil has tricked many into wanting to fit in. It’s not until you seek the truth you will be free. 

I recently discovered that your “inner man” (soul, subconscious etc.) deals with having to conform everyday. We do it all the time, when you’re at the grocery store, bank or doctors office, we talk in this unauthentic, weird way, it’s annoyingly creepy. Our subconscious has an involuntary need to be like everyone and to be LIKED by everyone. Since the beginning of our life, we have been fitting in, some people don’t even know it. It’s not like the regular stuff, it’s deeper. It’s feeling like you can’t be your true self, around your friends, family and work environment. They expect you to be a certain way so they can put you in a box. But when you don’t fit in a box, they ridicule you to make you conform. As black a woman, I feel I don’t fit in with other black people. I don’t say the word “nigga”, I don’t listen to rap music, I don’t support BLM, I don’t eat unhealthy foods (crab boils, ew) and I’m not trying to be a hot girl.I’m just Cristen. I hate evil, and I know evil when I see it. Evil is subliminal and I always call it out, in return I’m ostracized. My inner man is threatened to conform.

You must have an encounter with God to be free. A lot has been going on in the media. Global celebrities are standing up to evil, not caring about fitting in or being canceled. Thankfully they know their reward isn’t in the world but is with God so it strengthens them to fight the spiritual battle. An enemy of the world is a friend to God and vice versa. We live to serve God and to be authentic, that’s the only point of life. The enemy is the ruler of the world so many are led astray from God and end up being a version of themselves God didn’t create. The enemy makes idols for people to worship. For example Cardi B and Migos are idols for hot girls and gangstas to look up to. The devil promotes them even though their music is a curse. The enemy wants people to have no morals. He promotes bad influences because that’s his job (and he’s always on his job).

Being authentic is having a relationship with God, the one that created you. He’s not only Lord and Savior over your life but he also is a teacher. What ever you need God to teach you he’s always there. I use to pray for money until a voice spoke and said pray for God to teach you how to handle money. I realized it wasn’t that I didn’t have money, I wasn’t spending it right. He then taught me to always make sure my essentials are taken care of FIRST and to never buy unessential items unless I can’t afford to pay for it 10 times. That alone is a lesson, that I’ll keep forever in life. These are things you can receive from God, (wisdom) once you’re on HIS side. There’s been other lessons I will discuss in later blogs.

Be yourself, ask God to reveal who you are, it will not happen over night but each day he will reveal it little by little. You have to know who you are because if you don’t, this world will tell you. It’s important to seek God and to be authentic so you are free. 

Stop Abuse

Abuse is to treat someone with cruelty or violence, especially regularly or repeatedly. Many people deal with abuse(even as adults) and don’t know it. It doesn’t matter if abuse is verbal, physical, or mental it all has the same impact.

Abuse is normal in todays world. The world and abuse are long time friends. Since the beginning, people have taken advantage of other people, mistreating them without regard. It’s not right but the world has normalized it. We have become numb to mistreatment. You see the effects of abuse manifested in the world today. Because of abuse the whole world has been corrupted and hell has broken loose. People simply do not have it in their heart to care about others. It’s not that they’re cruel but the world is so cruel that it turns their hearts cold. We’re not born evil or abusive, but the environment shapes us to be that way.

There’s many ways a person becomes abusive, it starts in childhood. We should treat children tenderly, and make sure we are not causing any irreparable damages to their self image. Did you know abuse changes you at a cellular level? So that means if a child is being scrutinized and abused physically, it changes their DNA. Also it makes them susceptible to addictions. Biblically speaking abuse causes gateways for satan and demons to enter, changing their spirit, it’s very hard to fix. 

Abuse doesn’t just happen in childhood, it happens in every stage of life. The more common ones when we’re older are with spouses and in the workplace. Workplace abuse is REAL, but it’s done mentally which is harder to pin down. Co workers and bosses abuse you, making you feel less than when you’re just trying to make a living. Then to top it off since it’s so normalized everyone expects you to suck it up and deal with it. How much abuse can a person take? This causes mental health issues. As mentioned before it doesn’t matter if the abuse is verbal, physical or mental your body can’t detect the difference and processes it the same. This means if someone traumatizes you mentally, it’s just like being a huge car accident where you lost your legs. 

We should remember one of the first lessons ever taught “if you don’t have anything nice to say, don’t say it at all” because words have the ability to hurt people. The power of life and death is in the tongue Proverbs 18:21. We should be careful of our actions especially with children, if you think you may have abusive qualities, then get help before you spread it around. Hate is contagious disease. 


“Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast, it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on it’s own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrong doing but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things and endures all things” – Corinthians 13:4-7

What is love? I always knew love was what parents felt when they had a baby. But other than that, I never knew. Love is simple, it’s an action. It’s things you do through out your day that you love. It’s waking up knowing that you don’t have to go in to work that day, it’s coming home from a long day and getting to finally rest, it’s going to the dentist to have that tooth pulled that’s been putting you in agony. It’s a release. It’s a comfortable feeling.

Love is being able to stand up confidently for what you believe in. Love is standing up for yourself and others. I feel love must start with you. You have to love you before you can love someone else. If you don’t know what something is, you never had it, how can you give it to someone else? Love is quiet and calm. It’s not loud and overbearing. It’s not critical or judgmental. It’s not stress inducing, it’s stress relieving. Love doesn’t carry around negativity; it doesn’t hate and isn’t jealous of others. In Corinthians 1:18 the apostle Paul says “If I speak in tongues of men an angels but do not have love, I am only a resounding gong or a changing symbol. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all the mysteries and all the the knowledge, and I have faith that can move mountains but do not have love, I am nothing. If I give all I posses to the poor and give over my body to hardship that I may boast, but do not have love, I gain nothing”. Paul tells us that love isn’t a mere feeling but it’s how we relate to others. It’s an action. It’s the posture of our hearts when we do something that brings love.

Love is enduring meaning it’s unchanging, it doesn’t switch up, it’s reliable. This brings huge amounts of trust and loyalty that strengthens relationships. Love is more than words, you can’t describe it. It has many different forms, it flows.


I can’t believe it’s 2022 and people are still racist. It breaks my heart to see people not like black people. We impacted a lot while going through a lot and it saddens me, we’re not valued. It comes from us not valuing ourselves. In this next stage of consciousness, that we are all experiencing, we must value ourselves. We have to position ourselves like the Israelites in the Bible, in order to make it to the other side.

As I was on Instagram today, I saw a post and it struck a nerve. It was a spanish, Puerto Rican guy ignorantly making fun of his black “friend” because of his skin color. He made the comment in a jokingly way, but it wasn’t a joke. I’ve been feeling for some time that Spanish people (all other races, but especially them) are vey racist. I don’t understand how you can be racist to black people. It comes from a very hateful place that needs to be checked by a doctor. I feel sorry for racist, that’s not a way to live life. If your are racist, God isn’t on your side. He doesn’t like ugly. The devil is having his way, and it’s unfair to you. You never get ANYWHERE in life having racism in your heart. It’s like a blockage, that no blessings or miracles can get past.

I have been oblivious to the hidden racism that’s in this country. I am a black woman. I love this skin that I’m in, I look in the mirror and love me. However, many people don’t. They look in the mirror and hate what they see and they take it out on other people, specifically races. That’s what makes a racist. I haven’t been able to wrap my mind around racism, it’s a very touchy subject that I hold dear. Many organizations eat off of blacks being targeted. They take a bad situation and use it to benefit them. That’s even more racist than the harm that was done. So, I never get involved with Black Lives Matter. It’s a hashtag, a company that preys on blacks, I don’t like it. They don’t help.

As black people, we should focus in on the Bible. The bible is telling us what’s going on. It’s a book that never goes out of style because it is made for us. In the Bible, Moses led the Isrealites out of Egypt, that was his purpose. But God didn’t take the usual route, because of Pharoah’s (King of Egypt) army so he told Moses to lead the people toward the Red Sea. They had to go through a desert. They had to unlearn they things they were taught in Egypt, their spirit was tested. Many died trying to make it to the promised land. We are in Egypt, this world symbolizes Egypt where there are many false Gods. But when you break free and choose to live righteously, you must give up what you know and go through the wilderness/ desert. You have to trust that God is leading you to the promise land. When they finally made it, generations had been born and they were new people. They no longer had sin in their heart. Their customs were different.

As black people, this is for us. We are the Israelites. We are slaves in Egypt, it’s apparent. We must wake up and leave Egypt, mentally. We must give up habits that are keeping us here. Habits like smoking weed, being over promiscuous and hardening our hearts to God. God is the one and only savior. No healing can come unless it’s from him. But it’s a partnership, God partners with us to leave Egypt. We have to do our part in leaving sin behind. They had to leave everything they had in Egypt and follow Moses.

Now is the time to choose life. We get so wrapped up in the world that we lose sight of our oppression. When you are mentally enslaved, you are troubled and have a lot of hate in your heart. God has been working on me, that’s why I’m able to tell you. Choose life and leave sin behind.

Happiness is Essential to Health and Beauty

Healthy living includes being happy. Beauty comes from the inside. The way you feel on the inside shows. It’s important to stay beautiful on the inside so it can be revealed.

Most people think it’s genetic, but beauty isn’t an inherited trait. Beauty is about showing vulnerablitly. If you’re unable to let go of life’s mishaps it will show in the way you look. Beauty is also shown through the way you carry yourself, your energy. Energy can be felt, it’s like WiFi. That’s why one person can mess up the vibe in a room and the latter, they can also start the vibe in a room. It’s all internal and it comes from being unattacted to the laws of the system. Being unbothered and doing your own thing creates beauty. Follow me. The more you are stuck in the system, the uglier you become. It’s not that you have acne, it’s your friend circle.

When you are stuck in the system, you live in a program. Anything outside the program you don’t see. They program us to only see their idea of beauty. They’ve programmed black women to hate their hair and to not see it as beautiful, when in reality health is beauty. Anyhing not healthy is not beautiful. Your body, if it’s overweight, that should be a problem in your eyes. Being overweight is a big sign of laziness.

In the system, the only happiness we have is their idea, and it makes us ugly overtime. Their idea of happiness can never sustain you, and will result in stress. When you are constanly under stress, not only will your body suffer but so will your face. Your face muslces will get stuck in an unplesant way. Your skin texture will change and you will lose muscles. Stress can weaken your whole system.

It’s unfair your beauty has to suffer due to things out of your control. But that’s why if you stumbled across this blog you’re in luck. You can fix your appeareance through being authenically happy and showing it. I believe eveyone should look and feel their best.

Rebuke Flattery

Throughout life you will meet a lot of people. Some may be similar to you, and others may not. It’s important to ground yourself in knowing who you are, so compliments from others (or criticism) does not phase you. We are sucked into a world where others opinions hold weight. We do things that are praised, so we start to feed into society. That’s the foundation of anxiety and depression. .

I use to go around being my authentic self and men would compliment me. It made me feel good but awkward at the same time. I felt I was being pulled to open up to them just because they were “friendly”. I feel men use flattery to loosen women up and get them to let their guard down. They want to come off as friendly and charming, but if they were authentic, they would not have to put on any airs. Once they see you eating up the compliments, they have control over you in a sense. I’ve seen men use flattery to make an impression that they are good people. They have ruined women lives, placating the good guy, and they gaslight, when in reality they have ulterior motives. Flattery is how they move through society. The same way they flatter you, they flatter majority of the women they run into. You probably don’t see it as flattery and think its genuine, when actually it’s everything but.

I have serious issues being flattered. I use to think people were being nice. I took compliments because, it’s “negative” if you don’t. Now, I realize I already know who I am. I don’t need sweet talk from men that don’t know me. I fell back in love with myself like how I was as a child. I realized I always knew I was great, (I don’t need anyone to tell me that). It wasn’t until I bit from the apple of what everyone else thought that I lost consciousness of what I thought about myself.

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