Let’s Live

Life is an endless journey. Lessons change. What you’re dealing with this year, probably had no impact on you last year. I caught myself still feeling troubled by the things I was already redeemed from. Past anxiety came to hunt me. The enemy will make you forget, you already beat him.

It’s important not to forget the challenges you overcame. They will come back, and try to get you to go toe to toe with them again. It’s a waste of time, and the enemy is betting on you wasting your time. He steals it from people; that has been his weapon since the beginning. That’s how he’s able to use you for his plan. Don’t fall into this trap. Learn your lessons, fight for your breakthrough and then move on. Never become stagnant in your relationship with God. God is always showing us ourselves and what we need to work on. He shows it through our circumstance. Whatever is haywire in your life, that’s the area that needs work.

This brings me to my second point: asking God the right questions so, you can get the right answers. He loves to have conversations with you but, when you’re not asking him the right questions it puts a dagger in your relationship. It’s like you have this enormous spirit that created you in your heart. It knows everything about you, but you’re not asking it what it knows, it’s a waste. So ask God real questions. “Am I suppose to be doing this?” “What am I?” “Why was I created, what’s the mission?”. Ask him that, don’t try to figure it out yourself.

Another word that fell on my heart, is peace comes from God. Only he can give you peace. Before we descended to Earth, I like to think we were always in a state of peace. Peace is the enemy, of the enemy. Satan can’t touch you when you’re a peaceful being, it drives him away. The only problem is, peace can’t survive on Earth. It’s like you take a fish from the river and place it in a fishtank. It may live a couple of days but it doesn’t have the organic nutrients to survive in this realm. With everything going on from the Pandemic to a cogolmerate of social issues, peace has no space to live. Things are always coming for our peace. The main way to beat this is to get in your peace bag, and have nothing take you out of it.

It’s time to really live in 2022. God has done his part, it’s up to us to follow through.

Spiritually Bankrupt

The last two weeks have been gloomy. I started off, feeling like I was on top of the world. I finally decided what I wanted to focus on. I spent each day doing what my heart desired. I worked out every morning. I made healthy meals and only did things I wanted to do. I was focused on one goal. It wasn’t until I was hit with a request to do something I did not want to do. It was a paying gig, so I agreed. The next day, the client cancelled on me. I felt my bad, and my body started to ache. That quick, I was thrown back off track. I don’t know why it hit more seriously this time. Clients have canceled on me in the past. But because I went against my spirit, it cost me. I broke the flow I was having with God. He didn’t tell me to work on this, he gave me free reign to work on what brought me joy.

You have energy stores, located in your heart. When you do things that you enjoy, the amount of energy increases. You look and feel better. You have no pain or sickness in your body. But if you go against what you enjoy, it pulls energy from your heart and you can end up spiritually bankrupt. When the enemy sees you working on things for God, he will throw anything to distract you. The situation with the client resulted in my heart going bankrupt. It pulled me away from what I love. I was working on something assigned by God. I was nuturing my heart with it, then all of a sudden I turned away from it, to do something I borderline hated. I had about $100.00 worth of energy stored in my heart, after the fiassco with the client I had about $25.00.

It’s that serious with me. When I feel I have to do something I don’t like, my energy gets drained. So much so, it can take weeks to refill it. I use to be able to deal, until I realized the only person I’m hurting going against myself is myself. You have to be fed by things you love before you do the things you hate. I wish to get to the point where I only do things I love. I’m learning, if it sounds like something I don’t want to do, I decline it. God wants us to do that.

Follow your heart. What is your heart insiting you do? Nourish your heart with things you love. Go to your heart often because God lives there. I’ve been putting my relationship with God above everything else. He’s shown me I don’t need to grind to live a righteous life. As long as I am being a vessel for him that’s all that matters.

Self Love Recap

2019 and 2020 were based around self love. More people went to therapy and talked about mental health. It was an epidemic during the pandemic. A lot of people became vegan and lived more spiritual lifestyles. We ate better foods and reprogramed our minds to think better thoughts.

Now at brink of 2022, I realize that self love is a stepping stone for what’s next to come. You can’t manifest, be blessed etc., if you do not love yourself the right way. Loving yourself is more than what socia media says it is. Loving yourself is saying “no” to anything that opposes you. It’s saying “hell no” to relationships that stunt your growth. It’s loving yourself so much that you condemn anything that’s not aligning with your spirit.

It can be hard to know when you’re not loving yourself. This world does not support self love. It gives, “you think you’re better” if you decide to value yourself (toxic af). Self Love is more than meditating, affirmations, crystals, and all of the fluff we believe. Real self love is walking away from a jobs/oppoutunities that run you dry. It’s standing up and choosing yourself first and always.

I realize YOU CAN BE WHOEVER YOU WANT TO BE, this has been the biggest lesson so far. Valuing what you wish to be, is self love (in it’s greatest form). It doesn’t matter what you want to be. If you want to move Alaska and become an Eskimo you can. If you want to live OTG, and become one with nature, you can. Even if you want to be a high fashion model, and take pictures in fabulous clothes all day, guess what? You can! YOU CAN BE WHO EVER YOU WANT TO BE. Anything that’s in your will, you can be.

There’s a difference between being and doing. Being is more important than doing. We are human beings, not human doers. We’ve spent so much time doing, that we forget to just be. I have made it my priority to just be. I want to be the woman that doesn’t stress about much; I want to be a calm woman. That’s who I want to be, so that’s who I am.

Knowing you can be whoever you want, comes before knowing yourself. Everyone’s always saying, “you have to know who you are”. But how can you know yourself, if you don’t understand who it is you wish to be? You have to find who it is you want to be first, that changes the tone of your life.

Hoes vs. Good Girls

There’s an attack on good girls. All you see on Instagram is half naked women. In music, all that’s talked about is sex. It’s seldom to see women fully clothed. R&B music has been replaced with “thot” pop and ratchet rap.

There are many types of women. Bougie chicks, boss babes, wild/free spirits, laid back chicks, emo/nerdy girls, and tons more. But, all you see in media are thots. It’s like, if you don’t have a$$, you don’t matter. Society reduces women to bodies to please men. Our worth is tied to our degragation. The less clothes you have on the more popular you become. All you see is ass. I’ve grown wearied. If I see another butt cheek, I’m going to throw something. It’s uncommon to see clothed and sophisticated women. Where are the classy chicks?

Have they disappeared? Did a spaceship come and take them to a new planet? Or did they transform into a lower version of themselves due to their surroundings? It’s important to know yourself. Once you know yourself, no one can’t tell you who you are. We are role models to young women. They look up to us. Young girls don’t know who they are yet and look to us for clues. We are the first examples. They will follow our footsteps. It’s less about us and more about the next age group. Whatever we do, the next generation is going to build on it. I remember it was a “twerking trend”, everyone on social media was twerking. This was in 2012. IG had just started, my young 9th grade self made a video of me twerking. It’s very cringe to think about now but, the reason I did it was because it seemed cool. I saw women who were older than me twerking, and it pulled me in. Fast foward to 2018, everyone started doing the “cucumber challenge. Ew. It was embarrassing to say the least, and it set us back as women. I say all of this to say, it started with twerking now we’re giving up more of ourselves. Now women are on Onlyfans, sharing their most sacred parts with people they don’t know. We are not sex objects and we have a brain. We are worth more than our bodies. Our worth is not determined by what we can do for men, but what we can do for ourself.

Don’t let society use you. Be a lady. Ladies always win. They don’t have to do anything and always score a high value man. They live a good life because they have strong values. It’s important to have morals you live by. Their morals are unchanged by society. You do not have to be naked to fit in. How about you stay clothed and stand out.

God’s Love

God’s love is the best love. He loves strong but, gentle. He loves us at our worst and it’s unconditional. Even when we turn our back on him, he still shows up in the most mysterious ways.

I gave my life to God and it’s been an enlightening experience. I was blind but, now I see. I see what moves lead me to him, and what lead me away. I gave him my mind and heart. I asked to be used by him. I asked for renewal of my mind and spirit. I no longer feel depressed. I feel comfortable being myself. When I was in the enemies hands I always felt anxious. I lost touch with my feminine side, everything was hard and rugged. My body hurt each day, as the enemy lived inside of me. I was a mess. I hated everything about my life. Even though God was still leading me to the promised land, I was conflicted because the enemy had my mind. God fought him hard. Each day was a battle but, God defeated him. Thank you Jesus. I carried something important (like we all do). I had something that would free people and the enemy did not want me to release it. But, God set me free.

In my walk, I’ve learned he is serious about his people. No weapon formed against us shall prosper. Your enemies will fall at your feet because of God’s power. He will speak in you and through you. I’ve learned that once you enter his kingdom, you are on his team. Everything you do is for the kingdom. He uses your body as a vessle for his goodness. Praise God.

Being close to God has shown me the enemies ways. It’s a war going on between the enemy and God. Just like God is forming a kingdom, so is the enemy. Just like God will use you, so will the enemy. It’s important WE DO NOT LET HIM WIN. He will decieve us. He will lead us to go against ourself. We will ruin ourself following him. He’s manipulative. The enemy has humanity figured out. He knows how to make you tick, and LOSE YOUR MIND. He’s been doing it for thousands of years. You’re lightwork for him. Without God, the enemy has free reign over you. God is the only one that can defeat him. The enemy is afraid of God. All you have to do is give God you, and he will show you how to defeat him.

I now look at society on a higher level. I feel like I’m climbing a mountain. I’ve learned about the enemy, through God. I see how he’s tricked millions. “Our battle isn’t with flesh and blood but with evil spirits in high places” Ephesians 6:12. Everyone’s on drugs, that’s not normal. Evil spirits in high places wish to end us all. People are destroying themselves, jumping off roofs, slitting their wrist and overdosing, that’s the enemies plan. He does not want us to release what God placed in us, so his foot is on our neck. He’s wicked. Nothing about the devil is cool. I see how, his ways are now made “cool” by society. Being on drugs, fighting/killing, degrading your body as a woman is now “cool”. Those are his ways. Don’t be fooled. Everything listed above will lead you to self-destruction. It is not of God.

God will find you at your worst and make you new. “His strength is made perfect in weakness” 2 Corinthians 12:9 . When the enemy is on you, that’s when God Iikes to show off. All you have to do is call his name. Don’t ignore the fact we have a powerful and almighty God in heaven. This isn’t to say you won’t be tested once you accept him. If anything the enemy will come at you more but, give God the glory and he will defeat him every time.

Seek God

In today’s time, God is barely talked about. We give more power to Satan. We live in a society that is Anti-God. It’s unfortunate because we need him.

I’m getting closer to the creator. I understand I can’t do it by myself and why would I want to when I have him. He’s been there since birth and has never left my side. I, on the other hand have. When I was my furthest away from him, I experienced a lot of disfunction. I was anxious, scared, angry and depressed. I smoked weed daily, drank, had sex and got caught up with the wrong people. The enemy led me astray. I was hopeless and looking for love/hope in all the wrong places. Until he took me out of the enemy’s hands and made me new. I’m forever grateful for his love.

I want others to experience him, if he can save me I know he can save you. He’s waiting on you to call him and express your need. He wants a real relationship with us. Did you know your relationship with God can grow? Just like a relationship with a regular person. Man, does it feel good to have him in your life. Everyday, you know you’re on his team. He’s not going to let anything happen to you. You’ve accepted him and you are apart of the kingdom. You have the whole entire heaven backing you.

Today’s society is LOST. We are so far away from God, it’s almost no saving us. The school system has taught us lies. We are led to believe they’re over 26 genders when we know there’s only two. That’s anti-God. Then when you speak out against the brainwashing you become public enemy number 1. I can not deal. How are you suppose to live in a world, when there’s no morals? Morals keep us connected to God. We innately know what’s right & wrong but society says, forget what you know. How are we suppose to progress? What sleights me, is everyone thinks they’re smart. They will try to put their ignorance on you. They will try to force you to believe what’s morally corrupt. They don’t know how foolish they sound. Then, the same crap gets taught to our children.

Not to mention the roles of men and women. Their morals are WEAK and it’s by design. Women on social media posting half naked pictures and degrading themselves. How are we suppose to have strong families and be role models if we’re showing our asses, literally. The men aren’t better, killing each other and not having a sense of purpose, it disgusting. We must get to know God because he will give us our purpose. We are not raising a strong generation. Just a generation of LOSERS. Meanwhile CHINA is getting ready to overthrow America. Their children are way smarter and they have strong morals. They don’t promote a moralless society. But, that’s a different discussion for another blog.

What I’m saying is find God. Seek him. He will give you purpose. It’s a reason you are here. He has a blessing from heaven, to give to this world and it’s through you. There’s a small God inside all of us. All of us are connected to him, otherwise you wouldn’t be here. Find the God inside of you, and connect it to the Holy Spirit. That’s the only way your spirit will be saved. It’s a war going on between the enemy and God. And the territory is you, don’t lose this battle.

Build Your Craft

It’s awesome to have a passion. It’s cool to have talent. But when you don’t apply pressure, you’re missing out.

You must do more than post on social media. You have to use your feet to get what you want. No one ever became sucessful being on social media all day. And if they tell you that, they are lying. You must put in the work. Just because you post your opinion on social media doesn’t make you a philosopher. What work do you have, other than social media posts? What impact have you made? Do people in the industry know you?

We get so tied up in people looking at our stories that we think we’ve made it. Not understanding, that more work must be done before we can say that. Back in the day, before SM, society worked hard. You had to, otherwise NO ONE would take you seriously. Nowadays, all you have to do is move your thumbs and people see you. That’s great for already hardworking individuals but, for the wannabes it gives them too much power. SM could shut down tomorrow, then what would you have? Who would you know? I’m here to say NO ONE in the industry takes you seriously if you’re only hot on SM. For an exmpale I use to work in a salon. Everyone was good and had a SM following but no one had their own clientele. The clients belonged to the salon. Stylists were there for YEARS and didn’t have ONE CLIENT. But of course, they all thought they were the ish, because they were getting the salon’s clients, not realzing their position. They relied on the salon, instead of the salon relying on them. When days were slow they would all sit around. No one came in for them because THEY DIDN’T HAVE CLIENTS. My boss would have meetings begging them to bring in clients, but they were too lazy and lacked drive. They had SM but that was useless because they lacked motivation. Needless to say I unattached myself from that salon and started getting my own clients. Now I have many clients, and it’s all because I applied pressure to my situation.

You have to put in the work and not just on SM. If you have a product, posting it on SM is great, but taking it to different companies and shopping it around is better. Communicating with people in person, leaves a lasting impression. Also the energy you put out is the energy you receive. If you just stay on SM promoting yourself, you’ll get that energy back but, if you pound the pavement as well you’ll get even more. If you limit your craft to SM, you’re limiting yourself. SM could be shut down tomorrow, then what would you have?

There’s been times when what I wanted wasn’t on the internet. Whether it was jobs, apartments, information about something etc. I went out and spent days looking for it. I had to physically go to places to get what I wanted. Just relying on the internet isn’t good.

No Vaccine Please

I am battling whether I should get the COVID vaccine or not. I do not want to get the vaccine. The thought of something foreign, that was created in a lab entering my bloodstream scares the B’JESUS out of me. I don’t trust it. I’ve had “COVID”, my body persevered (like bodies do) and I’m fine. Why must we get the vaccine? Our bodies can function fine without it. I don’t like idea of interuppting what my body does naturally to appease society. The human body has been evolving for centuries and is smart as F, we don’t give it enough credit. We are the purest form of nature. We make electricity. We are a powerful spiecies that does not need outside chemicals.

We are nature, so why is it we depend on non-natural approaches in life? We take medicine and get vaccianated, interrupting what naturally occurs in the body. We go to therapy which has it benefits, but it’s a non natural approach to live. Why pay someone to hear your problems, and offer THEIR advice? They don’t know you, only you know YOU. Personally, I never been to therapy, but I can tell a therapist everything about me. No therapist can tell me about me. Therapy can be a gateway to spritual liberation but, it’s flawed and money driven.

This vaccine has stressed me out. On one hand I feel I should get it because of work/travel requirements. On the other hand it’s a battle with my inner self. None of this makes sense, so my intuition tells me not to do it. It breaks my heart, they will stop at nothing for full control over our life. They make a virus then create a vaccine for said virus, where is the logic? All of the diseases in the world are MADE, none of them are created naturally. Our bodies defense mechanism is too strong and well programmed. My theory is, they create diseased cells that mimcik actual cells, our body recongnizes it as its’ own and doesn’t attack. That’s how our cells become diseased. What they’re doing is devilish. They are coming for our body, mind and soul without regard. They are changing the way we operate internally. At the same time, they are brainwashing us into believeing if we don’t get the vaccine we are a disgrace. So we are getting screwed both ways.

Instead of a vaccine, we should have a cure.

This is not fair and I want the truth to come out. We don’t know what’s in this vaccine or the longterm affects. We are lab rats. I pray that God reveals the truth, and my people take their power back in the most powerful way. We have it in us to stand up to the system. If this was 500 years ago, people would not go for this. They would overthrow the government and get their power back. We need to understand, those same people are our ancestors and they want us to fight.

5 Reasons Why Beating Your Kids is Abuse

Growing up, I didn’t know beatings, whoopings and spankings were all forms of abuse. I would get a “beating” and act as if nothing happened the next time I saw parents. I was numb. I noticed the beatings increased my temper, making me lash out at my siblings more violently. I also grew over emotional because I was being punished with pain, when I needed understanding. It left a layer of confusion and doubt in me. Here I was 10/11 years old, being spanked but, not corrected. Most of the time when parents spank their kids, it doesn’t do anything. Some adults DO get a rush out of beating their kids. It’s almost the same rush slave owners got after whooping one of their slaves. It’s not right, and here are 5 reasons:

  1. Beating your child doesn’t fix the problem. One of the most important reason why physical punishment should be banned is because it’s ineffective. What’s the point of physical punishment when the issue is still there? Put the belt down and talk (communicate) to your child.
  2. The child doesn’t understand, you just look like a bully. Let’s be honest, the beating does more for the parent than the kid. Some (crazy) parents want to hold power over their kids, so they know who’s in charge. The little man (ego) gets the best of them and they will go to extremes to prove their power. This highlihghts the toxic nature that is in some adults. Taking your anger out on someone smaller than you is dishonorable, go get some help.
  3. It causes psychological pain. Not only does it cause physical pain but also pshycological. Physical punishment has been linked to anger issues, poor social skills and nerve damage.
  4. It creates sad and hurt adults. You know the saying “the children are our future”. We should protect them and keep them safe, not beat them every chance we get. They are powerless and it’s up to us to make sure they make it to adulthood happy and whole.
  5. Think back to how you use to feel. No one EVER liked getting beat. It was humillitating and stressful. It’s almost like your spirit was being stripped from you. It caused unnecessary conflict and tourmented most childhoods.

I would like to think we reached a place in society where we can agree that physical punishment is barbaric. There are things we must change if we want to stop generational curses. Everytime you grab a belt to discipline your child, you are completing a ritual meant to keep negative enegy in your family. Healing starts with childhood trauma and part of the trauma, are those hateful whoopings.


Time has passed since I last updated. I’m growing. I’m getting to the root of who I am & what it is I desire. I learned you cannot learn lessons if you are always on go. You have to pause. Stillness enhances clarity. Growth comes over time. Clear direction is a crucial step in self-discovery.

My life lessons have been at an all-time high. By taking a pause, I was given a new pair of eyes. Pausing is taking a mental break and letting go, surrendering to the universe. I was working, hustling making money. I wasn’t happy, and I was just “getting by”. So, I started to work harder, and “pushed myself”. My spirit resented me, and I was depressed. It wasn’t until my job let me go, I got the message. Life is about working hard, but if you don’t know in which direction, you’ll always be lost. I said numerous times, “I don’t like working”, “I don’t want a boss, I am a boss”, “this isn’t for me” but I continue to seek employment because I was programmed to believe it was the only way. Job after job, I still was unhappy. I was unclear of what I wanted. It wasn’t until I took a PAUSE, I was able to see my life.

I lived life in a “get by” state. Since childhood, I was in survival mode. Just doing any and everything to keep from going down. As I became older, I became wiser. I’m innately spiritual but, the humdrum of human life makes it hard to reach your best self. That’s why you must sit in silence, and pause in order to hear guidance from your inner self. Your inner self has been here before, she or he is familiar with this world. You’re back because you have more lessons to learn. If you’re constantly in work mode, it’s hard for your higher self to communicate. When you’re doing without direction, you’re not fulfilling your purpose to God. When you’re humanly living day to day life, you’re not being of use to the universe. You’re caught up in the matrix and social media and not consciously at a level to hear your higher self.

Pausing is surrendering. A lot of lessons will come once you pause. Make it a habit to take mental breaks. You don’t always have to be on go, like we’re trained. It’s actually counterproductive that way. 

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